Stuck in the Matrix

This notes is not complaint or anything, but the reality of being an architect is not easy as you think. You people see bro is posting heavy dense content good try. In fact no one sees what am I carrying all the time being a solo architect and how much weight pushing forward every day to build a foundation. I’m experiencing real time solo leveling at least he had the system to help him but in real there is no supporting system is the worst part.

Right now situation

Multiple work windows are open, waiting to finish yet the cognitive bandwidth and biological clock has hard boundaries
No team , no support , no safety net and no one is ready to join the work.
Working on Core, public signal, final destination to anchor became a serious bottlenecks
Each work has breadth and depth if touched one work then it is consuming too much time to finish and come out of it.
Searching for support, sadly hitting walls so hard the dead silence, or ignorance
Some times it pushes to the edge to windup everything and wake up like nothing you did due to sheer density of external pressure and internal exhaustion of work.
Unfavorable eco system, how many pathways I search there is always a road block waiting to say hello right near the final conlusion.
It’s a curse to see invisible architectures in plain sight and hard to live like you saw nothing
Need a miracle to get basic things and a team to work who doesn’t need to break their cognition since I have high level of load bearing capacity to out perform the machine speeds.

Unresolved questions

Which nation is supportive to foundational and paradigm shift works?
Why the existing systems are locked so hardly it shows the perfect maze architecture only 2 exits either surrender or stop working?
Where are the real architects and system thinkers? Why yourselves locked in silos and unable to see the invisible architectures?
Why these investors are so dumb and investing on patch works so heavily ? and why blind to real work?
Why not evolving instead playing in same room for so long? Competing with same outdated benchmarks, strategies and markets?
Why are you unable to see the human agency degradation is hitting ceiling day by day ?
Why preserving history and why in present blocking real breakthroughs? who will disrupt ? is the collapse end game?